It's OK to get a "B"

Sorry for the lapse in writing. To say things are busy would be a huge understatement. To say I am stressed would be an even bigger understatement. I have been feeling very overwhelmed lately. I put a lot of pressure on myself to be the best in everything I do. I think that's ok to a point and then it becomes unrealistic. I think I've taken on too much right now to be the best at everything. Between work, school, trying to be a "mom", and some other unnecessary stressers I'll refrain from discussing here, I've taken on too much. I think the stress is adding to my migraine problem and the migraine problem, in turn, adds to my stress because I lose days at a time to being in bed to avoid the pain. Something has to give.

I want to allow myself to be ok with getting a "B" in my hard class this semester. I think it would allow me to work a little less on it. We had a take home midterm that I probably spent about 40+ hours on and I still think I'll probably get a "B" on it. That makes me crazy. I need to let it go but it's so hard for me. This whole "being an A player" has been so engrained in me that it's nearly impossible for me to knowingly let myself perform less than my best. But my priorities have changed. For so many years, school was my priority. It's hard to let go of that. But work is my priority now and I need to adjust. Of course, letting go of getting an "A" is also stressful so I'm pretty sure I'm just going to be stressed regardless. I'm counting down the weeks til the end of the semester when I can have my life back again. 7 weeks......